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HAPPY NEW YEAR SUN

ENTRY- JANUARY 1,2024 Happy New Year bebbb. I hope this year brings you all the happiness and success you deserve. Although I may not fully understand my place in your life, for now, I am content to be a friend and well-wisher, always wishing and praying the best for you. The first moments of 2024 were spent in conversation with you. Our talk was ordinary, yet you brought up some important matters. I'm genuinely pleased that you asked those questions. As you pointed out, I am younger than you, and undoubtedly, I'll encounter many people in the future. However, age doesn't dictate my convictions, and just because I meet new people doesn't mean I will alter my principles. The concept of 'trust' holds profound significance. Any action should be backed by trust, and it can't be done casually. Every endeavor can lead to either a positive or negative outcome. If it's positive, it's meant for you, if it's negative, let it go and extract a lesson from it...

LOST IN MESSAGES: SMILES, SILENCE, AND A DANCE OF DOUBTS

 ENTRY - DECEMBER 20,2023  Today, lost in the rhythm of work, time slipped through my fingers. The moment I finished, my world narrowed to one thing, his messages. Turning on my data, a smile flickered to life when I saw his "hi." His simple words transformed my worn-out day into something beautiful. I called him, chasing the thrill of hearing his voice, but silence greeted me. I hung up, convincing myself he needed rest. Minutes turned into an ache. Something felt off, a yearning I couldn't shake. Should I call again? Is he sleeping? Doubts flooded in, drowning me. Am I too much? Am I too into him? Am I okay? Reality hit when he didn't call back. I'm left wrestling with my own thoughts. I need to be stronger and trust more. It's a dance of emotions, a delicate balance between longing and letting go. Tonight, I'll hold onto the hope that tomorrow brings clarity. 

BITTERSWEET GOODBYES

ENTRY-DECEMBER 18,2023 Today, exhaustion lifted at the thought of resting. Anticipation for time with S made me very happy, almost freakishly so. But when it's time to part ways, the happiness turns into a lingering sadness. Why does saying goodbye feel so heavy? Am I okay? DIV