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LOST IN MESSAGES: SMILES, SILENCE, AND A DANCE OF DOUBTS

 ENTRY - DECEMBER 20,2023 

Today, lost in the rhythm of work, time slipped through my fingers. The moment I finished, my world narrowed to one thing, his messages. Turning on my data, a smile flickered to life when I saw his "hi." His simple words transformed my worn-out day into something beautiful. I called him, chasing the thrill of hearing his voice, but silence greeted me. I hung up, convincing myself he needed rest. Minutes turned into an ache. Something felt off, a yearning I couldn't shake. Should I call again? Is he sleeping? Doubts flooded in, drowning me. Am I too much? Am I too into him? Am I okay? Reality hit when he didn't call back. I'm left wrestling with my own thoughts. I need to be stronger and trust more. It's a dance of emotions, a delicate balance between longing and letting go. Tonight, I'll hold onto the hope that tomorrow brings clarity. 

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