DEAR ALBATROSS

 Hey my love,  

Hey my love, today has been one of the hardest days for me. I felt so lost, so broken, and I didn’t know how to control the storm of anger and sorrow inside me. You know, there was a time when I didn’t care about anyone, when emotions didn’t mean much to me. But everything changed the moment I started talking to you. You made me feel again. You taught me to love and for the first time, I started to see the beauty in opening my heart to someone. I used to hate the word 'love'. I thought people threw it around without meaning it without valuing it. But with you, it’s different ,so different. I feel love in its truest, deepest form when I think of you. I feel it so strongly that I want to scream it out to the world: 'I love you more than words could ever express.' My parents will always hold a special place in my life, but after them, it’s you. You are my safe place, the one I turn to for everything, even the tiniest details of my day. With you, I don’t have to hide, I can share all of me and you still make me feel like am enough.  But today…... today I felt like no one in this world truly liked me. I convinced myself that people only talk to us when they want something. That thought shattered me, and I let it consume me. In that moment, I did something so stupid, so reckless - I added repellent to my Coco Crunch, thinking maybe it was better to just end it all. I don’t know what I was thinking. I wasn’t thinking at all. I didn’t stop to remember the beautiful memories we have made, the way you make me feel or the love we share. But then, as if the universe stepped in to save me, you called. Hearing your voice, knowing you were coming to see me was like a lifeline. I panicked, vomited everything, and ran to you as fast as I could. I was late but am still here because of you. I promise you, I will never let myself fall into that darkness again. I can’t imagine leaving you behind, not for a moment. I love you so much, and the thought of not being with you terrifies me. I need you in my life not just now but always.  As I write this, my tears are pouring like a waterfall. Life is so hard sometimes, but you have given me the greatest gift - a love so pure and so powerful that it’s carried me through my darkest moments. I only hope I can give you even half of what you have given me. I need you, my love today, tomorrow, and for every day after. Please don’t ever leave me. I love you more than I can ever explain and I will spend my life showing you just how much you mean to me.