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GOODBYES

 ENTRY- JANUARY 5, 2023

Today has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for me. I've noticed that whenever I'm around you, there's this excitement that just takes over. It's a feeling I'm not used to, but it's undeniable. Saying goodbye is always tougher than I anticipate. The prospect of parting ways, even temporarily, weighs on me. This isn't my usual behavior, and I realize I might have been a bit overwhelming. I hope I haven't made you uncomfortable with my reactions. I've picked up on the fact that you worry when I stay out late. I want to assure you that I'm well aware of the potential consequences, and I always try to be responsible. Despite that, the joy of spending time with you seems to overshadow the eventual sadness of saying goodbye. I want to apologize if my actions have made you uneasy. It's not my intention to cause you any stress. I understand your concern, and I appreciate the care you show for my well-being. I'll make an effort to dial things back a bit and be more composed. I value our time together, and I don't want my emotions to overshadow the moments we share. I hope you can accept my apology, and I promise to work on being more "normal" in my reactions.

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