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EGOISTIC SPAT TURNS SWEET

ENTRY - MAY 20,2023

 Hey, guess what? Last Sunday, May 19th, we had our first ever little tiff, but it ended so sweetly. I love recording all our moments, and this one is extra special. It was a super busy Sunday for him, and he really wanted to see me. Of course, I wanted to see him too, I always want him by my side, no matter what. So, I got back to the hostel early so we could meet. As usual, he picked me up. He was craving steamboat and asked me to find a nice place to eat. I found a spot and we both agreed to go there. On the way, we were chatting and everything was perfect. But then, he mentioned the place was near his aunt's house. When we got there, there was no parking, and he grumbled, "What kind of place did you choose?" That really bugged me because I had found it last minute, and I thought I did a good job! He parked and started looking for another place. I was so stubborn and didn’t reply when he tried to apologize. We ended up at the restaurant he chose, which was beautiful. He kept trying to talk to me, but I was still upset. We ordered food, and I got a burger, which I like to eat in a funny way by separating everything. He said he wanted to watch me eat and offered to cut my burger, which I refused at first, but he helped anyway. He loves taking pictures and asked me to smile, but I didn’t. I know I was being stubborn, but he was still so sweet. Eventually, he got upset too and stopped talking to me. After dinner, he drove a bit grumpily. I thought things would settle once we reached the hostel, but they didn’t. He gave me something he had promised and said goodbye. I was so upset and quickly went to my room, holding back tears. I didn’t want the day to end like this, so I checked the balcony to see if he was still there, and he was. I felt bad and texted him, "Are you going to end the day like this?" He sent me a picture showing he was still waiting downstairs. I immediately went down to see him. Once I got in the car, we started talking normally again. I learned that anger is so temporary and silly over small things. We have shared so many wonderful memories and created beautiful moments together. I don’t want to throw it all away. We both should have been more patient, but in the end, we made up. I definitely need to apologize for being so stubborn.

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